|Meal out on Yasmin's birthday after afternoon spent in hospital|
I hate steroids because almost immediately my usually happy, fun, although cheeky, daughter is replaced by a mini monster as described in The Story of the Steroid Monster.
It means all outings, parties and holidays which fall at that time are half ruined by her foul moods.
I hate having to state to everyone wherever we go, that my daughter is on steroids as way as an explanation for her bad behavior.
But most of all, I hate steroids because they make my daughter sad. She has no control of her emotions at this time and is overwhelmed by the anger and fear that they can induce in her. The only thing I can do is hold her. How she clings to me throughout this time.
I love steroids because when Yasmin took them for five weeks at the beginning of treatment, they ensured my daughter, all skin and bones and gaunt pale cheeks, piled on weight. My own beautiful little Michelin Man.
But most of all, I love steroids because they are a part of the treatment that is the cure.